It’s no secret that the past few weeks, or maybe months, have been rough on me. Ever since my arrival back to Ukraine from my trip home to the States, I’ve felt a little out of control of my life. Or more like, out of control of my emotions. There have been small upward hills over the past months, but they always seemed to be followed by a stomach flipping drop downward that I increasingly became unable to handle.
Sometimes I have a little too much pride. I think I should be the one to pull myself back up. I usually try to figure out/fix things on my own before I ask for help, and it’s mostly because I don’t like people telling me what to do. But this isn’t necessarily good for me.
I guess I’m saying all this because I feel like I’ve finally shifted out of the downslide, and it’s no thanks to my independence.
We had an oblast-wide meeting last weekend, and I spent 3 days with friends, new and old. It was a ton of fun, even if we did just sit in an apartment and play Durock for hours. I feel completely recharged. It’s amazing what some time with good friends can do. That, and 40+ degree weather. There is hope yet for spring!
Dad said,
March 14, 2011 at 11:42 pm
You can do this Jess! We’re all praying for you. You’re well over the hump and got much to look forward to once you get done and get back.
Love ya, Dad
Joan McGee said,
March 15, 2011 at 2:21 pm
Sending you hugs, prayers and lots of good wishes. You are not alone! Just close your eyes and feel the love.